So like i finally got out of the house to go to a football game, ran into someone who used to go to my school and Luke fell in love with the whore. Her name is Amanda Burch. And he said it reminded him of me but that is not the truth we were already haveing issues, all i ever wanted was his love, only he could love me after all that has happened to me and she took away everything, promise, a future, everything.
Now all i can do is cry uncontrollably and I hurt. He told her things that I have been needing to hear for months. It is so unfair and he only showed me anger and hatred but he was nice and sweet to her, he spoke and he shared with her, He hid things from me all the time. That girl too away everything, a friend, a future, hope, anything. And after two fucking years of never comeing down for me because of whatever excuses, he will come down November 7th for that normal human bitch!
So what am I to do? I have no one else to text me or speak to me or anything. He was all I had, I sacrificed so damn much just to be able to talk to him daily but no, he never cared, he just showed me anger. And now he is killing me.

I have to take some of the blame, I saw it happening and provoked it because I always told him the one thign that can kill this zmbie is seeing him with another woman. And it had begun killing me, I have to see another doctor because i now have liver damage whatever that means. And I have not much time to wite for i am at school and I am angry and hurt and probably no one will read this.
I just wish that he still loved me. He says he does but all I can think is "He loves her too!". And it is like.... what he now tells me is wat you human men call 'Sloppy seconds'. I stayed true to him and I told him that, But he said he expected it of me. He makes me sound like a mean sadisticmasochistic bitch out to hurt him when I know fer sure that I am not like that. But he adds to every other human in this world, makes me feel worse and I just do not know what to do or where tot turn.\

I don't know.....

Stole from

1 . YOUR REAL NAME:
Star

2 . YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Sta-izzle

3 . YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Green Wolf

4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Sanst
o.0

5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Black Orange Soda.
xD
Makes no sense

6. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)
Tnirarago
o.0

7. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (both parents middle name)
I don't know my real Da's Buuut
Irene Jouiner
(Step-dads)

8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Cling-On
NINJA!
More Ninja than the one below.

9. NINJA NAME: (First two letters of your first name added with Ruto)
Struto

10. PIRATE NAME: ( Your middle name after the word Captain)
Captain Spike
=}

If you get more than 30, get some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 11-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are full of ..........

What I fear ...
[] black people
[] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[] being a parent
[] being myself in front of others
[x] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[x] heights
[] dogs
[] birds
[] fish
[xxxxxx] spiders
[] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 4

[x] being touched
[] fire
[] deep deep water
[] snakes
[] silk
[] the ocean
[] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[] rats..
[x] jumping from high places
[] snow

Total so far: 6

[] rain
[] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[] death..
[] heaven
[] being robbed
[] falling
[] clowns
[] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[] men
[] women
[] having great responsibilities
[x] doctors
[] tornadoes

Total so far: 9

[] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[] scary movies
[x] poverty
[] Halloween
[] school
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[] growing up
[] creepy noises in the night
[] accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] needles
[] blood
Total: 14

14!
Woot
I am a pussy

RULES

1. You must tag at least 6 people.(Erm no, do it if you want ) .
2. No tag backs.
3. Tell the truth.


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1. What is your DeviantArt name and what does it mean?
My nickname is Spike,
That was a name my dumb ass hoped would ne a login,
Anyways it was a character my mother believed to be in her pastlifge and I used It because I was six and needed a log in for school and it is the only thing I can remember.

2. Why did you join this site?
I thought it had really good art and I wondered what you humans would think of mine.

3. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined?
Bartimaues!

4. How many watchers are currently watching now?
Around….. 30?

5. Your first gift ever was to?
On DA,
Probably

6. List five things you are a fan of?
Okayy…
+ Furry-Paws (FP)
+ Luke
+ Green Day
+ Sweeney Todd
+ Music

8. List four people you look up to the most?
+ Luke- he is soooo amazing.
+ She is an epic artist
+ Nikki, She has a wicked sense of humer
+ Canius, She is amazing even though Alaska is Zero degrees.

9. How many pets do you own?
PERSONALLY?
One,
My Pussy Mr. Cling-On!

11. What do you prefer, Red or black?
Black

12. Name 3 aspects of your personality?
+ That secret part I try to hide.
+ The part where I just know I am dead and the world thinks depression is my disease.
+ Indide the one where I looong for happiness and beauty.

13. If you could have a power what would it be?
To be a Goddess.

14. Who was the last person you talked to?
Um…
My teacher actually.

15. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
Luke the Angel.

16. Write the first five things that pop into your head?
+ “We will fight,
We will fall
until the angels save us all”
+ I have to go home in twenty minutes and Amy is off. =/
+ Chicken sandwhich
+ “1-800-SUICIDE
Or maybe Doctor Online could help you die
You need wings to fly
You need someone
To take your place
When you are gone”
+ I wish I could bathe with Luke. O.0


17. What are the things you wish you could do better?
Everything!

18. Do you like who you are?
A tiney little bit.

19. Summer or winter?
You know what they say…
Love like winter

20. Rain or sun?
Rain

21. List 2 odd things about yourself?
+ I like the taste of my blood.
+ Star is muh nammme


22. Pop or Hip hop?
I like both.

23. How many scars do you have?
Wow! Too many to count!

24. Do you wear spiked wristbands, Collars & belts?
Hell yeah
I love that stuff!
<3

25. Do you own anything from Hot Topic?
I own about 5 things or more.

25. Windows or Mac?
Windows XP


29. Favorite Color(s)?
Oddly Christmas copied me,
Green is my favouriest! And then is read, after that black.

30. Anime or Manga?
Anime

31. Beer or wine?
Red Wine

32. Goth or Emo?
I dislike labels,
They are for soup cans.

33. How many pairs of shoes do you have?
About 6 maybe.
I wear 3.

34. What is the most amount alcohol you ever drank in one day?
I was at Taco bell and my friend Ashley was talking about how ‘we’ need some alcohold so a Mexican spiked our drink,
We tasted it but we liked it too much.
I drank it quick and was hammered. I puked three times in her lake.

35. Cold or Hot?
'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up.

37. Do you like your user name?
NOOOO!
I thought It was just a sign in name and I want to change it ever since I made it!


38. Have you tried any drugs?
Nope
=/

39. If you have? what drugs?
Want a story?
My mother put me on depression pills and she told me how she has taken them when she was younger for quitting smoking because they serve as that too.

So a few weeks later she had the audacity to ask how they were working so I replyed
“I haven’t drank or smoke nothin’ in over twenty-two days, so get off of my case”

40. Do you have a myspace/Facebook page?
I have over 4.3k on myspace.

41. Pizza or Kebabs?
What is a Kebabs?

42. Are you are nice person?
No, I am a bitch!

43. How old are you?
Seventeen next month.

44. Spikes, studs or eyelets?
SPIKES!

45. Do you like your music loud?
Verrrry Loud

46. Kind hearted?
Is what humans rarely are.

47. Holden or Ford?
Hennery Ford is sexxxxy

48. Annoying?
THAT BITCH!
How dare she whisper that to my science teacher.
o.0
I do not know…..

49. Do you like PLZ accounts?
What?

50. Do you own a car or motor bike?
No.

51. Do you like The Presets?
Huh?

52. Do you keep secrets?
Yeah.

53. Should they release criminals from jail if they have killed someone?
It depends on why they killed someone.
But yes they should.

54. Are you a liar?
No!
And I hate it when people call me one.

55. Have you tried to kill yourself before?
Yeah, A few times.

56. Do you like your avatar?
Fuck yeah, made ittt!

57. Have you ever thought about killing someone?
I tried….
=/

58. KFC, Subway, McDonalds, Red Lobster or Burger King?
Mc Donalds fo lyyyyfe!

59. Do you love yourself?
No,
That is why I have endless men do it for me….
(The sad part is that is true, I have worshippers)
I swear, The Armageddon is going to come and me and Satan have a deal!

60. Do you cut yourself?
I used to.

61. Do you get depressed?
Yes but if I was removed from my situation I would never be again.

62. Do you have many friends in real life?
No……

63. Hardcore or Darkcore?
Straight edge.

64. Should stalkers get a second chance?
Depends.

65. Imports or muscle cars?
Both?

66. Gay, Bi or Straight?
Bi.

67. Do you get enough money each week?
No but my husband likes to pretend he is Hue Heffner and give me an allowance monthly.

68. Fast or slow music?
Techno!

69. Do you like that number?
You know it

70. Do you use XD and LOL alot?
oh GOD!
I actually say “X-D” In reality.

71. Should police mind their own business?
Maybe?

72. Do you have a boyfriend?
Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My amazing husband whom is amazing and sadly not here to rescue me and be my amazing angel who is a serial killer and gets my vengeance!
o.0

73. If so. Who?
LUUUUUKE!

74. What is your Favorite band(s)?
Green Day, Blood on the dance floor, Jeffree Star, Good Charlotte, ect. Ect.

75. Baggy or tight pants?
Baggy.

76. How many T.Vs in your house?
Two

77. How many computers/Laptops in your house?
Two.

78. LCD or Plasma?
Plasma.

79. Are you racist?
No.

80. What time is it now?
2:01pm

81. Should subbys be free?
What is a subby?

82. Are you a slow, Medium or a fast typer?
Average

83. Do you like quizes?
YEAH!

84. Do you buy stuff from those cheap Chinese shops?
Not really…. ?????

85. Do you own any weapons?
yeah.

86. If so. What?
Shhhh!

87. How many speakers do you own?
o.0 Eight?

88. Have you ever been stalked or followed?
Yep.
No
Who knows?

89. Do you own a pair of boots?
Yep.

90. What is the best thing in the world to you?
Luke.

91. What is your favorite Emoticon(s)?
- XD

92. Do you like pie?
Hellll yeah!

93. Have you ever stayed up longer than 24 Hours?
yeppp.

94. Do you have any big brand name clothing?
Yeah, A few I guess/

95. If so, what brands?
Tripp, ect. Something else. O.0

96. Can you handle the sound of loud cars or motorbikes?
What did you say?

97. Do you like kids?
If they are not mine.

98. Sonic The HedgeHog Or Miles Tails Prower?
Neither.

99. Eminem or 50 Cent?
A bit of both.

100. Money or love?
Love but…..
I've got money and hoes
in different area codes
they come down the block,
they want my cock.
I'm flashing my bling,
they're sucking my ding. Asphyxiation, push, cut to perfection.
So i walk up to the bar
looking like a star,
My diamonds and ice
look oh so nice.
Hi, I'm danger,
Hi, I'm gangster,
Hi, I'm mightier than any power ranger.

101. Are you random?
Yes, Verrry random

102. Can you sleep thru loud music?
I hate sleep……

103. Do you like where you live?
No!!!!

104. Taxi or bus?
A nice chaffier to drive me around.

105. What time is it now?
Since I am in class and did this in class so it is a different day that I am finishing this on-
1:29PM

106. What do you feel like doing at the moment?
o.0
You do not want me to answer that truthfully….

107. Do you go on YouTube alot?
I hate that site.

108. Are you are member of any other site besides this one?
FP YESSS!!!!!!

109. If so, what ones?
FP, and GDA,

110. Are you glad this quiz is finished?
Yeah.

Okay so I am bored and I haven't submitted anything in a while,
So I want to do art trades, I have a few slots open.

Please and thank yew.

=33