So like i finally got out of the house to go to a football game, ran into someone who used to go to my school and Luke fell in love with the whore. Her name is Amanda Burch. And he said it reminded him of me but that is not the truth we were already haveing issues, all i ever wanted was his love, only he could love me after all that has happened to me and she took away everything, promise, a future, everything.
Now all i can do is cry uncontrollably and I hurt. He told her things that I have been needing to hear for months. It is so unfair and he only showed me anger and hatred but he was nice and sweet to her, he spoke and he shared with her, He hid things from me all the time. That girl too away everything, a friend, a future, hope, anything. And after two fucking years of never comeing down for me because of whatever excuses, he will come down November 7th for that normal human bitch!
So what am I to do? I have no one else to text me or speak to me or anything. He was all I had, I sacrificed so damn much just to be able to talk to him daily but no, he never cared, he just showed me anger. And now he is killing me.

I have to take some of the blame, I saw it happening and provoked it because I always told him the one thign that can kill this zmbie is seeing him with another woman. And it had begun killing me, I have to see another doctor because i now have liver damage whatever that means. And I have not much time to wite for i am at school and I am angry and hurt and probably no one will read this.
I just wish that he still loved me. He says he does but all I can think is "He loves her too!". And it is like.... what he now tells me is wat you human men call 'Sloppy seconds'. I stayed true to him and I told him that, But he said he expected it of me. He makes me sound like a mean sadisticmasochistic bitch out to hurt him when I know fer sure that I am not like that. But he adds to every other human in this world, makes me feel worse and I just do not know what to do or where tot turn.\

I don't know.....